The year 2019 holds so many sad memories for me. In January I lost my Mom and then in February I lost a very dear friend to ALS. I found myself putting my life on hold to help my Dad and to be there for my best friend in whatever way she needed me after the loss of her husband.
My Mom did everything for my Dad. I had to teach him how to write a check so he could pay his rent. In fact, I had to show him how to do just about everything. I knew this time would come, but I had no idea it would come when it did. My Dad didn’t want anything around that was going to remind him of my Mom, so he had packed up all the photos, albums, jewelry, and anything else that was a reminder of her and gave them to family members. Before I even had time to come to terms with my Mom’s death, I was having to deal with all these memories that I had just been handed. A lot of things are still in their containers in case my Dad changes his mind and wishes he still had some of her things.
My best friend, Connie, and her family are like family to us. Our boys played soccer together for years and we all traveled together. We have so many great memories. When her husband, Daryl, was diagnosed with ALS, it was devastating! During his illness, we didn’t see each other as much as we would have liked, but we have the kind of friendship where we can just catch up whenever we can get together. During those times, we would talk, laugh, cry, and then I would just listen when she was angry and just needed someone other than family to vent to about dealing with this disease and what it meant for their lives.
Just when I would think things were getting better, something would come along and put me right back to square one. There were many nights where I could do nothing else by cry. I still have those nights at time.
At Thanksgiving, I had the opportunity to grab a co-worker’s timeshare in Tahoe for Thanksgiving. The person who took it originally backed out at the last minute and so my family decided to take it. The only person missing was my son, Brian, because he was already scheduled to work out of town that week and couldn’t get the time off work. We had a great time and it brought back some memories of my Mom and the first time she had ever seen it snow.
When we were on our way home, Brian called and said the guest bedroom was flooded and there was a leak somewhere. He turned off the water to the house. The drive took us 10 hours because of the snow. There ended up being a pinhole leak in the hot water line from the hot water heater that goes to the laundry room, guest bathroom and kitchen. Yeah, not good!
I closed out 2019 with mold remediation signed off, a claim into our homeowner’s insurance for new granite countertops, new backsplash, all new cabinets, and repairs to the new tile floors we had just finished installing in September. Because of the holidays, the insurance company said we wouldn’t hear anything until after the first of the year. Well, it’s after the first of the year, and we are still waiting.
My New Year’s Resolution for 2020 is just SURVIVING! I have decided to set goals for 2020 and my resolution is to survive and come out a happier and healthier me. I have learned to accept I can’t change what life throws at me, but I can survive it and learn from it. The most important thing I learned from 2019 is that I must take time for me. It’s okay to say no sometimes and that some things can wait until I am ready to deal with them. If I am happy and healthy, then I am stronger and more confident. So, here’s to SURVIVING and to meeting goals which will, in turn, make my New Year’s Resolution one that I will accomplish!